Friday, June 12, 2009

Kristy's Story, continuing by Debra Sanders

Part VI will be posted tomorrow. I am sorry that I have gone two days without continuing Kristy's story. You know, despite my absolute commitment to telling this story--for her, for others like her--this is a tough, tough story to tell...in so many ways--not the least being that I am rereading our emails and Instant Messages in order to get things in sequence properly and in order to choose a few to share with you. I want you to feel Kristy's spirit and her resiliency--her indomitable hope that despite incredible horrors,she could believe in, and find, mother love.

Be patient with me. I will try to post every day, every other day without fail...but obviously there are going to be those days when the best way I can cope with her death is not to write about it at all, but to spend 10 hours hauling bricks and rocks and pulling weeds and spending my time on my knees in my garden and breathing in the scents of lavender and lemon balm, tomatoes and basil, mint and thyme. In those moments, my heart is not quite so heavy....

Tomorrow I will write.

4 comments:

  1. I am transfixed by this story and Kristy's courage, but I'm confused, you say "cope with her death" ... I did not realize that Kristy had passed away. Will this be revealed in Part VI?

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  2. Sorry about the confusion! In part I, I mention: Kristy would have been thirty-one this September. That she lived even this long is testament to the power of the spirit, the creative intelligence of the mind and what surely must have been her deeply innate will to survive.

    I realize that is not a clear acknowlegment of her death--my original intention had been to move through this story much faster and that information would have become clear. I wasn't expecting that writing it would be as emotionally challenging as it is, nor that having to read through and find dates and quotes and information would take me as long as it does.

    Sorry for the confusion!!!

    Please keep reading and commenting!

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  3. Debra - thank you for clarifying. Kristy's passing is heartbreaking. In my Spirit life, I celebrate Kristy joining the Light and freedom from the earthly atrocities she suffered. There is no way to understand why such awful things happen to innocent children. But know this; I believe Your unconditional support helped release Kristy so that her Soul could move to a place of eternal Love. Your special gift enabled Kristy to give voice to her pain. Although this journey is filled with sorrow, it is not without Purpose.

    I believe this quote from Dhyani Ywahoo is appropriate: “Make a prayer acknowledging yourself as a vehicle of Light, giving thanks for all that has come today.”

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  4. What a kind and wonderful and encouraging thing to say. Thank you so much for this!

    Hopefully I will be able to keep writing her story. I am terribly behind, but hope that part VII will be posted soon and the rest will follow in a more timely way.

    Thanks again for your comment. It's very comforting.

    DS

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